Ask Sherry: Have I thought about just burning everything (blog-wise) & starting over?
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Before we begin:
Thank you all. There were so many messages and emails I couldn’t keep up, frankly. I appreciate the sentiment.
I’m so sorry you were hacked and harrassed and doxxed. What a piece of shit. I’m really going to miss your updates. You’ve helped me take tangible steps with my finances that I’d been stuck on for years. Fuck that guy. I’m sorry he ruined it for you, and I’m sorry you were violated and have had to go through this.
Thank you. I am sorry too that it came to this, because 99.99% of everyone I have ever interacted with, has been positive, lovely and really not an issue at all.
Very encouraging for the most part, but as always, in every single place, you are always going to have THAT ONE GUY who is threatened for some obscure reason. Instead of moving on and getting therapy, he’s going to try and show false domination to regain the perception of power he has lost by me being who I want to be.
He did it as a way to show: Hey I am going to dox you to show you how dominant I am, when in fact, he spent countless hours trying to hack into my accounts (a criminal, chargeable federal offense here by the way), and then used his status at Facebook as an employee to log in and view DELETED, PRIVATE Facebook profiles, all the while claiming all of it was public because he knows what he is doing is illegal if it wasn’t public info (it isn’t, you literally cannot Google me with a superficial search) and he can get in a whole world of trouble once he is found.
Who goes to that kind of trouble? Seriously? Yes, he says he is doing it because I’m such a b*tch, but you know what that’s a code word for, when it’s used for women right? Independent.
Independent of money, thoughts, societal perceptions, and the like. I am definitely influenced, and guided by many of those I interact with, but I make up my own mind at the end. Just because someone tells me something about a topic, it doesn’t mean I accept it at face value.
Example of a blanket statement:
All electric cars are better for the environment.
Example of independent thought:
All electric cars are better for the environment if you can obtain said electricity in a green manner.
Unfortunately, very few countries in the world, actually generate green electricity (wind, water, etc). So really, all of these electric cars on the road? They are worse than gas cars because the means for the electricity, are obtained via burning coal for instance.
I didn’t know this at the start, but I know it now, and unless you can change my mind again with maybe an argument that if we had more electric cars, we would make infrastructure changes to obtain the electricity in an eco-friendly manner (so far, not seeing this happen in the U.S. for instance), and society would change.
I know it seems like I am going off tangent, but I know exactly what I am being targeted, and after much reflection, while I am making a few changes as not to get stalked IRL by petty, insecure men, I am still who I am.
This is who I am in real life, and I’ll continue being who I am. Everyone knows I am like this because I am always in their face about these topics I care passionately about.
I am still an eco-feminist, I am still against racism, I am still against the patriarchy, I am still a huge advocate for financial literacy and understanding, and everything else I have never wavered from because they are my values and beliefs.
Sherry, I read about your recent online troubles being stalked online and how they’re going after your colleagues and your little one. You’re really good at social media and blogging, have you thought about starting over from scratch?
Brand new blog and brand new socials. Don’t transfer articles from your old blog to your new blog, like start over from scratch even with articles. Like brand new identity and everything. Even change your writing “voice”.
Don’t even call yourself Sherry or anything in the S family of names. Call yourself Katie, or whatever nickname you would be okay with. I wouldn’t do the style and jewelry stuff either, right now you’re just too identifiable by your style.
I think in 3-6 months your socials could be right where are right now. This is what I would do if I were you. What you experienced is just really scary. I would also redo the book series, you have as well. I would pull them, rename them or rebrand, redo chapters, and use another pen name for your books to go by.
This is just what I would do if I were in your situation. However I am sad to see you go, I loved your perspective on money and you’re a nice breath of fresh air from all those PF blogs that are so cookie cutter.
I considered it, but decided it wasn’t worth it for a few reasons.
My voice is distinct
I know it sounds like an ego thing, but I remember starting this blog, and day one, someone messaged me to say: Hey are you X? They knew immediately just because of.. I don’t know. The way I write. I can’t hide how I write, my story, my personal details and who I am.
My story is believe it or not, real
You know how they say that liars are easy to catch because they can’t keep the details straight? Well it’s been over a decade and the details have stayed the same. I mean, it’s no secret that I had a lot of student debt and got out of it. It’s hard to fake details of your actual life in your writing when it’s real.
You can’t help but say what the truth is eventually, and it all comes out because most of my readers are astute and sharp. One reader even commented how YEARS AGO she read a small detail about what I wrote, and caught me out being hypocritical by doing the exact opposite in a post. She wasn’t wrong! I had completely forgotten I had even written that, and I acknowledged the hypocrisy.
Anyway, my point is if that’s the case that my life is real and it is hard to fake, it means I’d have to pretend that Day One would be today as my money situation, and I cannot talk about how I got here.
The problem is what is interesting about how I reached here, is the journey itself, not necessarily the results. I understand that it is easy to say “I am/have _____“, it is harder to explain how you got there without details and information, and it’s THAT information that is the most valuable to most readers, I would imagine.
Putting myself in their shoes, if I were starting out, I’d want to devour exactly how this person did it. What did they do? Say? Change? Mindset? Who did they talk to? Read? …. all of this is how I’d learn how to use what I’d learn from them, to teach myself how to reach a similar situation. Or stay motivated, to see the journey over time.
I am not leaving
I am not leaving, I am going to stay where I am, but I won’t be giving PERSONAL updates of any kind, that’s all. The voice stays the same in the sense that I am still going to write what I want to write, but I won’t draw on my experiences. I will still give personal updates on my life in general, but no specifics.
I am not ashamed of anything I have written or done
Sure, I have done some stupid articles in the past, some even dumber when I look back and think: I said that about children LOL? … but I’d imagine the people in my life are kind enough to say: It’s okay, we’ve all had dumb ideas at one point or another. The point is we have changed for the better.
And I can say that’s absolutely true. I have changed for the better over the years, in no small part to everyone I have interacted with via the blog and so on. I have evolved to be someone a lot less extreme, more mellow, less combative, and open to varying opinions, differences and situations just because people have written in to say: Respectfully, I disagree with what you are saying because of ________ ….. I listened, and while I may not have taken their point 100% to change my view, I definitely altered the way I see things.
I am just taking extreme measures to not get my family, my son or myself stalked IRL because above all, that is all that matters.
If that means I cannot show what I am wearing or making any more (surprisingly something people actually followed and messaged me about), so be it.
If that means I cannot show you my new lovely home aside from small snippets, so be it. I am sorry I won’t be able to, but this is the world we live in now.
The trolls who think they’re doing something by burning energy in trying to “reveal me” and “end my career” and dox me, don’t realize it’s all an empty threat. Even if everyone knew my money situation today IRL aside from my family and friends and more people like my colleagues, classmates, etc … it changes nothing fundamental for me.
Some of my colleagues know my situation as well, and they don’t care because…. they are equally as successful and are HAPPY to share tips / information on how we could learn from each other. So what really happens at the end if people know who I am?
Do I get fired? No.
And I don’t even care. I even told my interviewer Day One before I took my recent contract that I couldn’t give two figs if I worked or not. He was a bit surprised but I meant it.
Do I lose friends and colleagues? No.
So I have money. Big whoop. They can kind of tell already by what I wear, what I drive, and how I act (not stressed at all about anything when everyone complains about bills etc).
The only thing that it does that I don’t love is two-fold:
A) New people are either going to judge me first with first impressions I had no control over because they’re using extra information they know about me.
It’s not ideal, but it isn’t earth-shattering. It’s like they know about me in detail and I know nothing about them. And you know how that goes, just look at ANYONE IN THE media. ANYONE. Literally any person. Then check the comments about how they’re being perceived. Even the best stories, get trolls. That’s what I want to avoid, IRL. It’s not worth the hassle, trouble and general nonsense, but it isn’t earth shattering.
B) They are going to treat me differently and give me extra attention (good or bad) which I want to avoid.
I am a private person in the sense that I am pretty chill about my situation. I am not mad if you find out about it, I am just not going to actively them to you. I am for lack of a better term, missing that ego and need to brag to people I know. I can count on 1 hand how many people actually know my situation down to the details with numbers IRL. But all you people I have never met? You know far more about my money than they do.
I have met plenty of guys (always men, I am sorry to report) at work, who like to brag about everything from what their house is, to their newest car, to their vacations, to the fact that they just pay their full thousands-of-dollars credit card bills without checking a single line (this one made me shudder), and I am literally aiming to be the opposite of that.
Quite a few guys (colleagues and strangers alike), upon seeing my car, have asked me all about it. Even what it cost, etc. I hesitate before saying anything, I do a quick 10-second creeper once over check, and then if they’re genuinely interested gear heads, I will happily tell them all about it, because it’s fun to geek out about mutual things you love.
I’ve even as I said before, had people IRL who saw what I was driving before and what I am driving now, and have treated me completely differently (nicer, post-car change), and I am not really receptive to that because I am the same person as I was before; you just think differently of me because of my car? That seems shallow. I don’t want that kind of interaction and false judgement IRL.
It is why on the blog, I just wanted to just talk about my money, some shopping, clothes, and geek out about it with other likeminded people who then teach me things I can use in my own life.
So long story short, no I am not starting over.
I am not changing anything about how I feel or think. Everything stays, frozen in time, and I no longer give updates or changes but I have nothing to be ashamed of. The internet can save anything, and I have done so many podcasts and interviews, it’s like trying to get the genie back into the bottle after she’s escaped.
But thank you! Thank you for taking the time to write in and suggest this. I did consider it, but *shrug*.
The other thing too, is that how would I weed out who is interested in following the new blog versus this one? I’d inevitably get a troll hiding somewhere who will follow me and threaten to dox me again. It’s the same stuff, more work.